DeepBlue

One Love

Higher than the sky above you
Clearer than blue
Brighter than the rays of sunshine
Warmer than what you feel
More than all the wonders you see
It’s the most wonderful thing

Brighter than the living colors of flowers you see
Sweeter than the touch of water
Flowing from the mountain spring
More than all the wonders you see
It’s the most wonderful thing

One love…
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
All we need is love
Real love

Marvel at the sight of greenfields
Amazingly seen
Watch the colors of the rainbow
It’s a miracle you see
More than all the wonders can be
But there’s more than that

One Love…
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one

Greater than what you can feel
More than what you ever dreamed
This is better than your everything
One love…

I love you so
Love is the beautiful one

All we need is love
One love

It’s been a long time since my last entry… I don’t know if it’s just the lack of time or the lack of anything to talk, er, write about… Oh well…

So much has changed over the past months… I think I can really say now that my "mantequilla" days are over… I hope nothing comes up, or else, those days will come back and haunt me…

I would like to say that my life now is a lot less complicated, and I like it that way… I never asked for a complicated life anyway, so it’s a good thing that everything is the way it is… Plain and simple… I don’t have anything to ask for… at least for now (",)

Argh! Have you ever hated yourself so much for doin something you shouldn’t have done?…. Well, I hate myself right now and it sucks!… It sucks big time! What’s worse, I can’t do anything about it… I can’t even talk about it with someone… For now, I have to keep it all to myself until i find the courage to let it all out and face the consequence of being judged… It was sooo not me to do it… Or was it? Oh well, there’s no use crying over spilled millk… What’s done is done…. There’s no way in the world to undo it… I’m just thankful that I’m being kept busy at work that there’s no time to whine and think about when i’m at the office… But then again, when I get home, that’s another story… I’m back to staring into space and to figuring out why i let it happen… The only consolation i have is that the blame was not all mine… It was my fault as it was somebody else’s…

Haaay… I thought my "mantequilla" days were over… It frustrates me knowing that they’ve only just begun… I could only hope for better days but with the way things are goin, i don’t think that’s even remotely possible… =(

Haaay…. It seems that people don’t have better things to do than to talk about the people around them… I have been a victim of these talks several times already and I coulnd’t care less… I’ve gotten use to it that it doesn’t really matter anymore what they say… I know myself better than they do and that’s what’s important… =)

Whew! It’s so nice not to feel bothered anymore… Last week was so difficult for me and it was my "most bothered week" to date… Have you ever been torn between getting close to the person you like even more and staying away?… I felt that last week, and i’m telling you, it’s not easy… i was at work but my mind was someplace else… i almost didn’t get any work done… if it weren’t only "quotahan" week, i would’ve ended up doin nothing… oh well…. I am just so glad that phase is over!… everything is ok now and i have made my choice…. i’ll stay away but i know it’s not going to be an overnight thing… it’ll take a lot of getting used to… i’ll try my best to "un-like" that person… i have to if i don’t want to be heartbroken or before it’s too late to turn back… i have also decided to be just friends with him… it’s better that way… no complications and less chances of being bothered if things go wrong… i’m just looking out for number one… i don’t want myself to be just someone’s fleeting fancy… i deserve more than that… =)

Haay… Why did i have to overanalyze things?… that was so stupid of me, confronting him the way i did… now everything’s out in the open and sometimes i just can’t it help but feel awkward… he said i don’t have to be but it’s something i can’t control… oh well….

we’re still cool as it is, which, by the way, i don’t think is healthy, at least for me… this closeness is pointless…it’ll not go anywhere… but then again, i’m fine with that… i never expected anything to come out from it in the first place anyway… or did i?…

i should have seen this coming… i’ve been through this road before, i should have read the signs…  now i really think i’m stupid… again, oh well…

Haaay!… I am just so happy these days…. There’s always a smile painted on my face and i sing along to just about any song and i love it!…. it’s been a long time since I liked someone this much… it’s also surprising because i don’t even know why i like him… i can’t even pinpoint a reason why… all i know is that i do… call it weird, i couldn’t care less… what’s important is i’m happy… this someone is making me happy… this happy feeling is making me even happier…. (now that’s too much happiness, don’t you think?)… Oh well…

It all happened so fast, i couldn’t even stop to think where and when it all began… suddenly we’re so close and too friendly with each other when in fact we weren’t like that before… what happened?… don’t ask me, i don’t know either… but then again, i shouldn’t be putting to much color into this… maybe he’s just really being nice to me… maybe he’s bored or something and he finds it amusing to be extra friendly… i don’t know…. whatever it is, i’m still glad that it’s happening… everything happens for a reason so i’m sure there’s a good one behind all these… Ü

I have always believed that everything happens for a reason, that everything is part of God’s plan for me. It is from that belief that i draw my strength. Many times i have fallen and stumbled and every time i get up because i know i am not alone… I have my family and friends, and of course, i have Him. He has always been there and forever will be… There have been times that i doubted His presence but in all those times, He proved me wrong. He has this uncanny way of making things happen, that even before i ask or pray for it, He has already answered it. He never fails to amaze me… He never fails, period.

by Aqualung

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you’re standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
and it’s brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I’d given up and given in
I just couldn’t take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn’t have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It’s brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine

It’s brighter than the sun
It’s brighter than the sun
It’s brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It’s brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine

I got a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It’s brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
I got a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It’s brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
And it’s brighter than sunshine.

After being in the GY shift for the past year, I’m finally going back to the morning shift this July… It will be an adjustment but I welcome the change and the challenge… There’ll be new people to work with and new friends, hopefully.Ü One thing is for sure, though. I’ll miss the "evening people" and uhm, the night diff… Hahaha. =)

I’ll start with my Spanish classess this month, too, and I’m very excited. I’ve been planning on enrolling since last year and I finally did. I’m so looking forward to being a student again, learning Spanish, and meeting new people.